and more of me is gone...

Yesterday I weighed in for my 3rd time (first was my initial time) and lost 1.2lbs and almost cried...though not tears of happiness!  I was pissed at myself for not losing more as I busted my ass over Christmas to stay within points, exercise etc.  Bob (the leader) sat me down and talked with me and I know what he says make sense, I am just trying to comprehend it.

***But the big picture is ...I have lost 9.2lbs in two weeks and that is awesome...

Next weigh in I WILL BE UNDER 300lbs for the first time in a long time!!

 Small goals ...I know!

After my meeting , Todd, Meaghs and I went for Sushi...and then to Whole Foods to get Todd the Kashi bars he likes...He was upset that they are now about 2/3 smaller for the same price...So I said - " are you going to be upset when I am 2/3 smaller and the same price?"  I haven't heard him laugh that hard in a long time! 

One thing I have noticed the more that I am at home hanging out the more I want to snack...hmmm get outta the house Illyse!
 and on this 2nd to last day of 2011...I already have a jump on 2012!

Funky Cold Medina

So it has been on odd week since I last checked in...Just in a Holiday funk!  Been keeping to my diet and counting my points..that is not the problem and really not sure what is...

Had a great Christmas!
Christmas Eve made a ham and cheesy potatoes, butternut squash soup(fabulous!) and broccoli  and Christmas morning it was cheesy ham eggs for all - including the dogs!  Got new slippers which really made me happy!!! Meaghs loved her gifts (even the clothes) and then it was birthday time!  She wanted Benihana and well don't ask but we wound up at Hamada of Japan which I though was even better and so easy to count points at!!  And she loved it!  It seems like yesterday we landed in Atlanta with all 17lbs of her and now she is 8!

I haven't exercised as much as I wanted to this week but still have a stuffy nose and the yuck feeling...not that I am making an excuse as I have walked! And I notice that I am not searching for the closest parking spots anymore...

Anyways, I better get back to work :)

The week in Review...

What a first week for me!

Ate out quite a bit...

Subway for dinner last Friday night...
Panera for lunch on Sunday...
Yummy Grill and Sushi on Tuesday...
Taco Bell on Wednesday...

And before walking into each restaurant I looked up the nutrional values of everything I would usually eat and chose healthier...
Subway and Yummy were easy as my normal there is very low in points ...Panera I could not believe that I could still eat a tuna on wheat (just not 4 extra mayo packs) and not the bread and butter to go with it...hello appple!!! And Taco Bell...had 21 points left for the day and could have gone with the Nachos Bellgrande (21 points) instead chose 3 bean tacos for 15 points...

I also did not exercise alot this week...only walked the one night but moved more in the house and the yard.  And this snot is still in my head BUT it is not my excuse...

I have also figured out that my scale at home is wacky but consistently wacky and I am not afraid of it though am afraid of the scale at WW. 

Got to my meeting last night fearful but hopeful as I did follow the plan to a tee...Stood on the scale and Harriet (not my mom but scary that the ladies name is the same) just wrote and did not smile or anythign WTF my heart sank...and I got off the scale and she said "you've lost 8lbs" WOOHOO! happy dance!!!!

Some serious needed here !

Erik - you ROCK!  your words and encouragement are seriously appreciated!
Carrie Krauthamer - thank you for that awesome website which turned into the first app I have ever bought for my Droid and helped me to choose what to eat!!!  (I know I will have to buy your next creation!!)
Wendala - You make me laugh and smile all the time and I think I love you! :)

YEAH LYSE!!!!

The wait is killing me

Funny how today is my day to weigh in and I am terrified...Yes I got on the scale at home and I know that I have lost but ...the fear is there!

Todd told I am being silly and I know that he is right (Shhh dont tell him!) I just cannot help it!

3 hours and counting to weigh in....

insert Jaws theme music here!

The fat girl can't get enough food!

I swear!  At 309.4 lbs I am supposed to eat 45 points a day and I am seriously struggling to eat that many!  You see, it is not that I eat crappy, unhealthy food...it is the fact that I don't eat enough.  Yesterday at dinner I still had 28 points to eat and that was after I used TWO tablespoons of REAL Hellmans Mayo (at 3points a T) in my tuna for lunch!

So we went to a local sushi joint for dinner called Yummy...fitting it is really yummy!  I had there Bento Box which came with egg drop soup (1pt), 4 pieces California Roll (4 pts), salad with ginger dressing (2pts) Teriyaki Chicken (12pts) and white rice  which I did not eat... so still failing at my points for the day but absolutely stuffed!
Came home and had a 1/2 cup of peppermint ice cream (3pts) and a glass of OJ before bed (being a diabetic my sugar tends to drop during the night)

Everyday I learn new things and am finally understanding what my cardiologist told me months ago...I need to eat !  After all the years of struggling with my weight and finally learning to only eat when I am hungry...I now have to be hungry MORE!

Just another bump in the road...

A day of firsts...

Went to Costco and did not sample or eat anything & had my points calculator, calculating..

Bought my first pair of sneakers in at least 10 years

Made skinny mashed potatoes with chicken broth, salt & pepper

Walked with my family and dogs in sneakers a quarter of a mile around the neighborhood!

the cup runneth over...

Day 1 of tracking my points online and Todd is tracking on paper.  He google how to figure his points and is supporting me :)

So lunch today was the leftover butternut chicken from last night that I had made (so yummy).  I had figured out the points online and told him that 1 cup is 8 points.

At lunch I went downstairs and see that he had already eaten and I look around for the measuring cup and didn's see it. 

Me: Hon where is the measuring cup?
Him: for what?
Me: to measure the serving
Him:  I eyeballed it

Well his serving was actually upwards of a cup and a half :)

It amazes me how we think we know what servings are, what moderation is...Such a learning experience and glad that he is learning with me!

ps.  that handful of peanut m&m's you just threw in your mouth...6 points big guy!

The good...the bad...the ugly...

The good ~ I have made up my mind to conquer this mountain...

The bad ~  309.4 lbs  5'6

The ugly ~ My stats..omg I am really writing this...
Chest - 58.5
Waist - 55.5
Hips - 62.5

On an awesome note...Todd and Meaghan are conquering with me ...
Todd - 5'8 175lbs  Chest - 40.5 waist 39
Meaghs - 3'11 46lbs chest - 23 waist 18.5 hips 23.5

Who..What..When..Where & How

Who: Me..I am wife to Todd, mama of Meaghan, Shelby and Wookiee, two time cancer survivor and fighting again and 309.4lbs.

What: 11 years ago I was diagnosed with Stage IV Vulvar Cancer and was given 6 weeks to live.  I made a bucket list of things I wanted to do before those 6 weeks came...I am glad they came and went!  This blog is the finale of my list and the reason for this blog is my #2...to weigh 175lbs.

When: NOW! 15DEC11

Where: My world...otherwise known as Henderson...

How: That is what stumps me..but I have taken the first step of joining Weight Watchers and have engaged my Facebook family who supports me always!